Feeling Defeated

I’m feeling defeated. I’m frustrated. I have scoliosis. I was diagnosed with it when I was in middle school. It’s just now recently started to really bug me. Last time this happened I went to physical therapy and it helped SO MUCH! I figured I could do this again and all would be well. So, I went to my doctor, got a referral, and off to PT I went. Well, apparently I had the awesome pleasure of being seen by a complete jackass who doesn’t know anything about scoliosis or how to treat it. In fact, that physical therapist made it worse and I had to be put on muscle relaxers. Not cool! That shit knocks me out cold! My regular doctor, who is awesome by the way, decided seeing a specialist was probably the best bet. I completely agree with her! We took new x-rays and off to the specialist I went. Yesterday was my appointment and I didn’t leave feeling too hopeful. I know it’s just me. I’ve avoided being  seen because I didn’t want to hear my curve had gotten worse. Sure enough, it did. The specialist read the x-rays and my curve is now at 40 degrees. This is the worse it’s ever been. Funny how the doctor I saw when I was a kid told me once I was done growing it wouldn’t get any worse. Guess he was a jackass too. So, all of this running around going from one doctor to the next and hearing that my curve is worse, is leaving me feeling defeated. It’s a hard pill to swallow.

self portrait 40 degree scoliosis curve

  • May 30, 2013 - 8:59 am

    Heather - Sorry, Kim. :( That sucks.ReplyCancel

  • May 30, 2013 - 8:07 pm

    Kim - Dangit. Sorry, friend. I have confidence you’ll overcome this though. Because you’re tough and you’re awesome.ReplyCancel

  • May 31, 2013 - 9:52 am

    robin - So sorry, I hope you are able to get treatment to help you feel better!ReplyCancel

  • May 31, 2013 - 9:56 am

    Tiffany Hendrickson - Really sorry to hear about how hard it is to live with your chronic condition. Dealing with pain on a daily basis is life changing. Here’s hoping tomorrow is a better day…ReplyCancel

  • May 31, 2013 - 9:20 pm

    Andrea Lythgoe - That completely stinks! I hope you can find someone who can actually help you, soon!ReplyCancel

  • June 1, 2013 - 2:21 am

    Amber - I’m so sorry! That is really miserable :( I really hope that you can find someone who can help you soon.ReplyCancel

  • June 1, 2013 - 5:26 am

    Abbe McCracken - I’m so sorry Kim. You will find a solution – it just may take patience and trials. I wish it could be easier. I selfishly hate to hear this – my daughter has scoliosis too, but very mild at this point. We’re going for the annual check in a few weeks. Awesome side note – your self portrait above is very cool and dramatic. I can feel your emotion. The X-ray looks painful.ReplyCancel

  • June 1, 2013 - 7:24 am

    bobbijo - powerful post. Thank you for your honestyReplyCancel

  • June 1, 2013 - 12:54 pm

    Barbara - I’m so sorry. I hope the thorough understanding of your condition will lead to well managed and successful care….ReplyCancel

  • June 1, 2013 - 10:35 pm

    Jenn - I am so sorry you are going through this, I hope you find treatment that helps!ReplyCancel

  • June 2, 2013 - 10:04 am

    tanja - oh Kim that sucks!!!! I am so sorry!!!
    hopefully you can find an amazing therapist that will at least be able to ease the pain!!!ReplyCancel

  • June 2, 2013 - 3:36 pm

    Heather D - I’m so sorry Kim…hoping each day is a better day from here on, and you get a Dr that will help and give you something more positive to focus on from this..ReplyCancel

  • June 2, 2013 - 9:59 pm

    Angela L. - That is really tough. My daughter has scoliosis. The doctor says it’s slight and will probably not progress. This post is a good reminder that I need to make her next x-ray appointment to determine if it’ has changed at all since the last one. And also to know what could happen down the road. So sorry that you are dealing with this. Hang in there ((hug))ReplyCancel

  • June 3, 2013 - 10:52 am

    katie - Oh Kim…that’s awful. There are some really fantastic doctors and PT’s out there…sounds like you had the crappy one. I have faith that this will turn around and you won’t be in this pain for much longer. Thinking about you!ReplyCancel

  • June 3, 2013 - 10:36 pm

    Kerri - I’m sorry :(.ReplyCancel

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