For the past two years we have been in and out of hospitals trying to figure out what is going on with Aaron’s heart and what to do to get him better. Whenever he ends up in the hospital, I usually shut down and go on autopilot. What do I mean by that? I stop functioning as an adult, I do the bare minimum I need too to run the household, my attention is consumed with worry about my husband, and on and on. It’s not a very bright and happy place.
It has taken me two LONG years to realize I can not do this anymore, and I need to take my own advice that I used to give Aaron while he was running himself ragged in command. “You have to take care of yourself and be the best “you” you can be before you’re able to take care of and be the best commander you can be to your soldiers.”
Why I wasn’t taking my own advice is beyond me. I get it now. In order for me to be the best caregiver to Aaron and mom to my kids I can be, I have to take care of myself first. As I type this out I feel really selfish and it’ll only take time to change my mindset.
For me, 2016 is going to be able remembering to take care of myself first. My plan is to workout or do some type of activity daily. Yes, Every. Damn. Day. Aaron and I can both tell there is a huge difference in how I am able to function on days I workout vs. days I don’t workout. Yes, a perk of working out, being active, and living a healthy lifestyle is losing weight, and I plan on doing that (I’ve got about 15 stubborn pounds to lose), but it benefits my mental health just as much as my physical health.
I’ve spent the last few weeks in 2015 working towards this type of lifestyle I want to lead in 2016. I feel amazing! If you’ve been following along on Instagram, you know my weight is not changing right now and I’ve managed to maintain within 1-2 pounds. What is changing is how I feel about myself. Mind over matter baby!
What is your plan/resolution/goal/whatever you call it for 2016? What do you hope to accomplish in the upcoming new year?